As a blogger I always try to say something positive or inspiring because you never know who's going to read your blog.  As you all know God is a big part of my life . . . I base everything on faith.

Since Dave has passed away . . . life has changed drastically and it's become a huge challenge.  I had to return back to work right away, that I've enjoyed.   But this is a very dark season in my life, I've experience so many emotions I can't even count them anymore.  At times, I feel so overwhelmed with life and all the responsibility that comes with it.  I so want my old life back . . but it's not going to happen anytime soon.  What I most realize that when you are in love with somebody, or you have that special someone by your side, everything is easy, like my Mom says, everything is pink.  Purpose is something you definitely need to have to keep living and I guess my purpose is to survive.  At times, it has been so hard to pray and stay in faith . . I remind myself of  God's promises and try so hard to speak scripture over my emotions . . sometimes I wonder if he hears me . . . cause, boy it seems like I'm screaming lately.

They say look at trial as an opportunity  . . I sure am trying, but it's so darn difficult sometimes.