Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Not Intentionally . . .

Cross stitching again . . . this pattern is by Brenda Gervais called, "May Word Play".  I downsized the pattern a little bit after realizing the piece I started it on was too small.  Actually, fell in love with the little gardener in the pattern carrying her watering can and walking with her dog . . . adorable, always love the cute stuff like that.

Anyways this post is not so much about the cross stitch project, its really about whats happening in my life.  I know I often write about Dave, my husband who passed away going on four years now.  This post is really about moving on and planting new seeds, meeting new people, wanting new things to happen and making new memories . . . that was a mouth full . . . LOL!  Funny, how the Lord speaks to us sometimes, I never intentionally pick this pattern for what it said, but after completing it, I realized this is a confirmation.  I'm planning and planting a new garden in my life and I can't wait to see the outcome.  I been wanting to post about these feelings for awhile, didn't quite know how to word it, sort of shy that way.

If you are a follower of my blog you know how often I mention my kids aka grown adult kids, my daughter is my number one fan when it comes to me meeting someone new, my sons not so interested, even when I try to chat with them about it, the subject is changed suddenly.  It becomes I guess sort of awkward.  My kids are everything to me and its important that they are ok with it.  I'm sort of struggling here a little bit with it.  I think you would call this part, "breaking the ground" for the new garden, a little seeding too is happening.  Lately, its been lots of praying for guidance and the "right" words to say.  Its funny how much these boys are like there Dad and I absolutely love that about them.  Life is definitely a journey :O) xo

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Don't forget . . . remember

because they might not be there tomorrow  . . . blessings xo

Thursday, January 9, 2014

I Choose "Joy" for 2014

For some time now,  the Lord put the word joy on my heart and butterflies.  I certainly have cross-stitched alot of butterflies lately.  I don't normally pick a word when a new years begins, but this year I did. The past few years have been eventful to say the least.  I really feel a sense of freedom now in my life, able to go and do what I want.  Nothing tying me down anymore.  The kids are grown and well on their way in there lives.  I'm a middle age widow but I certainly don't feel so out of it anymore.  Grieving is certainly not easy and its a process you cannot rush, but I feel I'm on the other side now and looking back.  When you lose a key family member, its devastating and it takes a toil on the whole family, it changes the game plan thats for sure.  My husband's death has certainly changed me as a person.  I've lost a lot of "things" after the death of my husband and that's all they are "things".  It's easy to focus on the negative but I choose to pick the positive.  I know if those terrible things hadn't happened I would not be who I am today.  I don't know where I'm going or how I'm going to end up in this life of mine, but I'm genuinely happy and feel as free as a butterfly, and I want to embrace my life as I moved forward and explore new things. For those of you that do Facebook, I played a word came the other day and the three words I found for 2014 were "Love, Intelligence and One", go figure.   I know the Lord will never leave my side and he will continue to guide me through this life journey :O)   

"Joy is the holy fire that keeps our purpose warm and our intelligence aglow" . . .   Helen Keller