I'm working again and it feels good. It helps me not to focus so much on my grieving. Waking up in the morning and coming home in the afternoon is the hardest thing for me right now. I wake up in the middle of the night and think about Dave. Boy, do I miss him. Towards the end, Dave was sleeping, sitting up, in the den on the couch, it was hard for him to breathe when he would lay down. All along, God was showing me these things and I guess I was in denial. The days in California have been so sunny, but everything looks so ugly to me. I have to learn how to find joy again in my life.
To all my friends in blogland . . . THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU ALL! Your words have been so comforting and loving and I've never met any of you in person, but yet I can feel your love and kindness.
I think that was the purpose of starting a blog, God knew I would need the support. Blogging is a wonderful way to express yourself, especially in these kind of life situations.
I need to find a way to give back for all the kindness that has been shown to me . .
The day Dave had his heart attack, that night God spoke to my heart and told me, "Dave will be a shining star, your heart will fall, but you will prevail", I've held on to these words like no tomorrow. I know God will speak to us if we really listen to him and press in. When I sat next to Dave's bed in ICU, I opened my bible and found Philippians 2:12-18, the title of the chapter was "Shining as Stars". This was the scripture I used at Dave's memorial.
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